Broken to Beautiful

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Brokenhearted?! No one wants to sign up for that. This was definitely me around this time three years ago. I was going through an unexpected break up that shattered my heart into tiny pieces. BROKEN. REJECTED. WORTHLESS. These were just a few words to describe how I was feeling at the time.

I remember isolating myself from others because I didn’t want anyone to witness my brokenness and to see that I didn’t have it all together. It’s like I wore a mask in public but in private I was crying myself to sleep. I poured my all into this romantic relationship but in the end he still failed me. I didn’t know who I was or whose I was unless I was in a relationship with a guy. At this point in my life I was so tired of trying to live life by my own standards. I wanted more out of life but I didn’t know what the next steps would be to achieve it.

I didn’t have a personal relationship with Jesus at the time but I was a believer. I only went to church when it was convenient for me or certain holidays like Easter. Fortunately, Easter was right around the corner so I went to church with my cousins. I still remember feeling like the Pastor had a front row seat to my life and that he was talking directly to my broken heart. At the end of service I decided to fully surrender my life back to Jesus Christ. From then on I got baptized, became a member, started attending a young adult ministry and then joined a small group.

I had no idea that saying yes to Jesus was just the start to a beautiful journey ahead of me. Please don’t misunderstand me…it’s beautiful but it’s not easy. At the time I didn’t understand the break up but now that I’m on the other side it all makes sense. God used the pain of that break up to reconcile me back to him. Rejection is only God’s protection. We may not like the pain we’re going through at the time but there is always purpose in the midst of the pain.

So thank you to the guy who broke my heart because now I finally know who I am in Christ. I’ve learned so much about myself since then and now I’m starting to notice that my heart breaks when I see other women who put their value in everything else other than Jesus. I challenge you to put more energy into thanking people who reject you instead of wasting energy being mad at them. Besides, it’s their loss anyway.

From my heart to yours,

Keayia

 

 

 

Welcome

Several months ago God placed this blog on my heart and the truth is I immediately disqualified myself because I’m not an experienced writer. I did NOT like writing papers while in school so I just knew this wasn’t for me. Besides everybody has a blog these days…I mean what else is there to talk about for me to have my own blog. Lord you know I was perfectly fine with just writing a guest post on my friend’s blog every once in a while. God, Why Me?!

I came up with so many excuses and worried about the opinions of others that I kept delaying this blog. But that’s not ok because delayed obedience is still disobedience. Psalm 119:60 says “I will hurry without delay to obey your commands.” I’ve learned that when God commands you to do something then he expects you to put your feelings aside and be obedient without delay because your life is so much bigger than you. There are people counting on your obedience.

Over a year ago my small group leader at the time gave each of us a light bulb filled with salt and attached it said, “You are the SALT & LIGHT of the earth”. (Matthew 5:13-20)Please Pass the Salt & turn on the Light for others. At first I thought this was a nice and creative DIY Pinterest project to get a scripture across to us. On the other hand, I started thinking about all the salt and light bulbs that I could’ve used for their intended purpose….instead a bible study might’ve been more beneficial. I mean I’ve heard the scripture before but it still didn’t resonate with me.

Fast forward several months after receiving my light bulb, I was headed to a leader’s retreat and we had to bring a token that best described the current season we were in and share it with the group. I wanted to make sure I picked the best token so I paused and thought about what was going on in my current season and realized the salty light bulb was the perfect token to describe it. I cut the scripture down to Matthew 5:13-16 NLT which says,

13 “You are the salt of the earth. But what good is salt if it has lost its flavor? Can you make it salty again? It will be thrown out and trampled underfoot as worthless.14 “You are the light of the world—like a city on a hilltop that cannot be hidden. 15 No one lights a lamp and then puts it under a basket. Instead, a lamp is placed on a stand, where it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your good deeds shine out for all to see, so that everyone will praise your heavenly Father.”  

SALT is a preservative and a flavor enhancer which stops the decay and pulls out the best in someone by adding value to their life. LIGHT means to make visible or to illuminate by allowing our lives to be a witness of the presence of God. It wasn’t until I went on my first mission trip to Nicaragua that I truly started to understand that my life is not my own and it was time to stop trying to plan out how I wanted God to use me.

Jesus didn’t give us an option to be SALT and LIGHT instead he said that we ARE SALT and LIGHT. We are representatives of Christ and we are commanded to live a life of influence so don’t just pass the salt but make sure you sprinkle some on every person that comes into your presence and allow your life to illuminate Christ. So God, Why Not Me?!

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